My Guardian Angel

I've always been wondering what an angel looks like. And so far, I've heard of many people saying that, 'Angels are beautiful' 'They are sinful'. But I’ve never been able to ever see one. Sometimes I wish that I could see them in my dreams. But it makes me angry because they never came to my dreams. I pray to God for an Angel to come to me. I got angry with God for not bringing them to me. I started to stop believing that they exist. I got angrier and angrier.

My friends and I talked about the angels sometimes. It’s just hard to believe that they exist. Because we can talk and say how pretty they are. But there's no proof to that because, no one has ever seen them. Sometimes I even wonder how an angel looks like. I wonder if they have white big wings, with pretty white dress, a pretty face and a golden halo of stars floating atop their heads. Sometimes I seek for my guardian angel.

When I fight with my friends, I seek my guardian angel for help. But my mom came to me instead of my guardian angel. When I fell sick due to playing in the rain, I asked my guardian angel to look after me. But again my mom came to me and took care of me till the day I got well. When I have a problem at school, I tried talking to my angel, but instead I look like a crazy person talking to the wall. So I ended up telling my mom all my problems. My mom is a good listener. She gives good advice too.

And then, I realized and thought that, all these while, when I’m looking for an angel to help me, my angel was there right in front of me. She stood there all this time."How could I be so blind?”I thought. She was the one I’ve been looking for. The one with the beautiful smile on her face, the one who sometimes wear the pretty white dress or that dress which has faded. The one who has the big white wings to keep me from falling. And the one who has a golden Halo of stars floating atop her head.

All these while, I was searching and searching for something that was right in front of me. I woke up that day no longer angry or hoping for my guardian angel to come to me. Because I woke up that day and I'm forever thankful to God for giving me my special Guardian Angel; my mom.

Happy Mother's Day. We love You so much Mom.

By

~Amanda (...& Adam & Ali too)